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Thursday, December 17, 2009

Thu, 17 Dec 2009 20:24:35 GMT

I have been thinking about this sone for a couple of weeks. This song that George Younce sang...he wasnt the first one to but he is the first one that I heard sing it...called "Thanks to Calvary"!! This song has got some great lyrics to it!! I love this song...because it makes me think of my Daddy!! For those who dont know...my Dad is a reconvering Alcoholic!! And growing up for me was not as good as most people think it was. But "Thanks toCalvary" remids me how far I think my Dad has come!! Here lately it has reminded me even how I am not the same as I was. I have grown in amy ways, but still struggle with many of the same things, but I know there there is someone out there who is Bigger then I am and can take car of all of it! Its the letting go thats ther hard thing. But enough of that... I hope you enjoy the lyrics!!

Thanks to Calvary

1. Today I went back to the place where I used to go,
Today I saw the same old crowd I knew before.
When they asked me what had happened, I tried to tell them,
"Thanks to Calv'ry I don't come here anymore."

CHORUS:

Thanks to Calv'ry I am not the man (dad) I used to be,
Thanks to Calv'ry things are different than before.
While the tears ran down my face, I tried to tell them (him)(her),
"Thanks to Calv'ry I(we) don't come(live) here anymore."

2. And then we went back to the house where we used to live,
My little boy(girl) ran and hid behind the door;
I said, "Son(Honey), never fear you've got a new Daddy,
Thanks to Calv'ry we don't live here anymore."

Myself Without You

Wed, 25 Nov 2009 16:18:23 GMT

When you walked out that door
I was so sure my world had ended
So sure I'd never get over you

On that first night alone
I cried so many tears it scared me
So many dreams that I had to let go
But now I know

That the world still turns and the sun still burns
And that's what I've learned without you
And the days roll on and my heart gets stronger too
Don't think I didn't love you
Just because I made it through
But I learned to love myself
Without you

I take myself to dinner
And I go to the movies solo
That's something I never did before

You may not understand this
But I don't' wait on invitations
I'm not afraid of the great unknown
Of being alone cause the

The world still turns and the sun still burns
And that's what I've learned without you
And the days roll on and my heart gets stronger too
Don't think I didn't love you
Just because I made it through
But I learned to love myself
Without you

I can even see myself
Falling in love with somebody else
Ready to take that chance again
Cause I know now
What I didn't know then

From: http://www.musicbabylon.comFrom: http://www.musicbabylon.com

Introducing the Great...

Tue, 03 Nov 2009 13:16:54 GMT

I have been thinking a lot lately about what I am good at. I can do lots of things, I am good at some of them, but I am not great at any of them. I love to sing and I am an ok singer. I am no Sheila Walsh, but I can carrya tune and half way harmonize, but I am not great. I love to make people laugh and I am ok at it. I am no Chonda Pierce, but I think that I am funny and other peple do too, but I am not great. I love to write and am ok at it. I am no David W Pierce or Ted Dekker, but I can poor my heart out in a poem and write songs, but I am not great.

Yes, I can do lots of things, I am good at some, but not great at any of them. However; one thing I am learning is that I don’t have to be great at anything. I can keep practicing what I am good at, and I may never be great. God doesn’t care if I am great at any of it. HE, the creator of all made me the way I am. There is no one just like me, I am unique and HE loves me for it! You may never see me on stage at the Grand Ole Opry or see my latest book on the Best Seller's list, but there is one thing I will always do, Praise God for the person I am being made into! Once I can completely grast all this, being great doesn’t really matter!

Complete

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 12:33:06 GMT

Here I am oh, God

I bring this sacrifice

My opened heart

I offer my life

I look to you Lord

Your love that never ends

Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you lord

In you strength will I break through Lord

Touch me now let you love fall down on me

And I will be complete in You

Here I am oh God

I bring this sacrifice

My opened heart

I offer up my life

I look to you Lord

Your love that never ends

Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you Lord

And by faith I will walk on Lord

Then I'll see beyond my Calvary one day

And I will be complete in

I look to you Lord

Your love that never ends

Restores me again

So I life my eyes to you lord

In you strength will I break through Lord

Touch me now let you love fall down on me

I know your love dispels all my fear

Through the storm I will hold on Lord

And by faith I will walk on Lord

Then I'll see beyond my Calvary one day

And I will be complete in You

This is one of my favorite songs of all. Chonda Pierce sings it. More and more I understand what it is saying. There are things in my life that have shaped me into what I am today. There are things that I am not proud of, but I have been working on breaking down some of these walls. I have become a stronger person, but none of this is possible without God's help.

God is the one who can fully strip all of the "stuff" off and make me into a "new creation"! This weekend I have had some amazing realizations. One of which is the fact that even though recently God has closed some doors in my life, HE has been faithful to open some newdoors that I never thought possible! By digging and working though my past, God has given me a new future, one where I will be complete!

Angel's Goodbye

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 02:30:12 GMT

She was beautiful in her own way

Always smiling through the day

She never gave a second thought

When by her friends she was sought

She gave all she had to any one

‘Til one day she no more could she run

From one day going off to play

To the next gone without delay

She flew home with her own wings

Leaving this world below to sing

Never again to feel the hurt and pain

That life had given her in vain

Now and forever happy and free

She now rides life on the breeze

She left me alone with no one around

Where pain and sorrow forever abound

Though time marches on from day to day

I must continue to grow come what may

Knowing she is with me cheering me on

Helps me to keep moving towards the dawn

The hurt still deeply remains for me

But forever my friend will be free

She flew home with her own wings

Leaving this world below to sing

Never again to feel the hurt and pain

That life had given her in vain

Now and forever happy and free

She now rides life on the breeze

Time can’t go back to before

Life will forever be sore

Sometimes bleeding sometimes bare

The scab on my heart is still there

But Angel my Friend there you fly

Gone before I could say goodbye

She flew home with her own wings

Leaving this world below to sing

Never again to feel the hurt and pain

That life had given her in vain

Now and forever happy and free

She now rides life on the breeze

Thoughts

Fri, 21 Aug 2009 02:20:20 GMT

So I was sitting at work and this song came on my iPod. Its called "He Will Carry Me" be Mark Scholtz! I have heard this song beut never listened...until today! I was almost moved to tears! So of course I had to look up the words and decided I needed to share them as a reminder to myself and to others...that we are not alone!! I am not alone...even if there is no person around...God my Father is still there...wrappig his arms around me!

He Will Carry Me

I call, You hear me
I’ve lost it all
And it’s more than I can bear
I feel so empty

You’re strong
I’m weary
I’m holdin’ on
But I feel like givin’ in
But still You’re with me

chorus:
And even though I’m walkin’ through
The valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
And I’ve been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will
Ever need
And He will carry me

I know I’m broken
But You alone
Can mend this heart of mine
You’re always with me

chorus

And even though I feel so lonely
Like I’ve never been before
You never said it would be easy
But You said you’d see me through
The storm

chorus

Labor Day Weekend

Wed, 19 Aug 2009 14:49:57 GMT

know many of you prob have plans for that weekend...but I wanted to let yall know about a unique opportunity! It is called Simply Free sponsered by Branches Recovery Center out in Murfreesboro! This is a special weekend of Healing and Hope! And it is simply free...I found out last night it costs you nothing!

Friday, Sept. 4 at 6:30pm and Saturday, Sept. 5, 9am-4pm

Simply Free is not a concert or a conference. It is an experience. Simply Free is a collection of stories, testimonies of recovery and restoration by people just like you and me. It is interwoven by teaching and punctuated by praise but it is really an invitation to stand in the presence of God and become Simply Free. You won't want to miss!

Calvary Baptist Church

431 DejarnetteLane

Murfreesboro, TN

For Tickets call 615-904-7170 or go to www.branchesrecoverycenter.com ! If you are unable to come...please spread the word becasue you never know who may just need this weekend!

WOW!!

Mon, 17 Aug 2009 00:21:58 GMT

WOW...its been a while!! It has been an interesting time! Andy was in town for a week and we got ALL the wedding shopping done...minus the food! It was a stressfull week...but Andy and I had fun just being together! I will be so grateful when Andy and I can be together and not have to worry about the end of a trip! I love Andy sooooo much and can't wait untilwe get married!! 5months from today!!!

Then I just got back into Nashville about 5:30!! Niki and I went to Shipshewana Indiana!!! We went to see Chonda Pierce and have fun in Amish Country!! It was my birthday trip for me since its my quarter of a century..25th birthday!! We had a blast!!! It was Niki's first "Chonda Show" and it was my 7th of 2009!!! Chonda gave me a hard time...and it was great!!

Thats about it in my world right now!! Tuesday I have Counseling...Wed is my actual Birthday and Robin/Natalie's Gig at Lime light...Thursday I am going to Build-a-Bear for my birthday...Friday night birthday dinner with my Nashville adopted family...and this weekend...who knows about next weekend!! Hope everyone is well!! Love yall!!!

Just Breathe

Sun, 19 Jul 2009 17:20:03 GMT

I was sitting in church this morning and realized that everyone worships in different ways. God speaks to everyone differently! God our creator made us all different…so then why wouldn’t He speak to us and through us differently? I don’t know about you, but God has always spoken to me through music and poetry. And then in His special way, God spoke to me through the song the choir sang!

I have always loved this song! The words are beautiful and so true. The song is “Breathe on Me”…and I believe that God wants to breathe His love and healing on us! The bridge of the song says this:

“I will say of the Lord,

He is my strong tower,

My Rock and my fortress,

In whom I trust.

In time of the storm,

And in tribulation,

He is my help,

And my salvation.

Breath of God

Restore my soul”

When I heard those words…my heart melted! I heard God say “Let me take it Kaylynn. I want to heal you. Cling to me and I will breathe on you and restore you”

I think that all too many times many of us have heard God say that to us! Yet in our free will and human nature we tell God that we can handle it ourselves, that we don’t need His healing to restore us! I myself have done that! But I am learning more and more, that I cannot live like that! I cannot live without God’s healing hand upon my heart and soul! I am human, I still struggle with letting go of the pain and letting God repair and restore! But, I can only take it one day at a time, one situation at a time, and look to HIM who gives me strength!

More Thoughts

Thu, 16 Jul 2009 16:18:09 GMT

So I was on my way to work this morning and was listening to music! Big deal I do that everyday! But last night on my way home I popped in a Cd that I havent listened to in forever! Kathy Torccoli's Greatest Hits. I love Kathy Troccoli!! The song "Stubborn Love" came on. I remeber my mom singing this song when i was a kid...but it wasnt until a few years ago I actually listened to the words. These words touched me to the core...to the point I almost cried listening to it in my car drving to work!

"Caught again, your faithless friend
Dont you evee tire of hearing what a fool I've been?
Guess I should pray, but what can I say?
Oh, it hurts to know the hundred times I've caused you pain
The forgive me sound so empty, when I never change
Yet you sat and say you love me still forgiving me time and time again.

Its your Stubborn Love
That never lets go me
I dont understand how you can stay
Perfect love embracing the worst in me
How I long for yourStubborn Love

Funny me, I just counldnt see
Even long before I knew you, You were loving me
Sometimes I cry, you must cry too
When you see the broken promises I've made to you
I keep saying that I trust you, though I seldom do
Yet you stay and say you love me still, knowing someday I'll be like you.

Its your Stubborn Love
That never lets go of me
I dont understand how you can stay
Perfect love embracing the worst in me
How I love for your Stubborn Love

Perfect love embracing the worst in me
How I long for your Stubborn Love
You never let go of me
I dont understand how you can stay
Perfect love embracing the worst in me
And you never let me go
I believe I finally know
I just can live without
Your Stubborn Love"

I have lived this song! I know that sounds funny...but its true! So many times I have found myself without faith, feeling unloved and alone! I have also seen all the broken promises that I have made to God...they are becoming less the older I get. But I can truly say that I am learning and believing that no matter where I go or what I do, I cannot escape God's Stubborn Love!

Stubborn Love, to me, isnt just about God just loving us! Its about God loving us through the trials and tribulations of life! HE wont give up on me...and HE will work with and through me! I am a work in progress, changing and learning daily! God is with me every step of the way, HE will be faithful to see me through, when no one else will! HE will be there to love me...when I dont love myself! HE will be there to hold me when I am alone! God is there with a Love that wont change and wont leave me in the dark!